Well, I have to say that week 3 was an interesting week and was challenging in the end. I do feel all of my past fears trying to bubble up and my old/new blue print being questioned. Even though I made the trip from Texas to California, the week did not go as planned. I was supposed to be able to stay in the house I am designing and the contractor quit on us.
The house was broken into Friday afternoon by kids, that I drove up on 5pm in the afternoon, and that was a lot to handle dealing with the police and everything. The internet service has been spotty until yesterday late afternoon, finally got internet installed. I have been in and out of Air BnB’s and some weird hotels. The webinar on “Speed Reading” kept kicking me off due to poor internet connection.
I haven’t gotten frustrated like I would have in the past. I keep telling myself that it is what it is and I am showing up to do my best. I have continued the readings and those seemed to be a struggle this past week. Yet, in an unexplainable way the readings and sittings have help more than I realized at the time. The OG reading seems to help me feel more empowered and confident.
Yesterday I felt pressure building in on me. I was feeling exhausted and I was feeling a little down yesterday. I was trying to change my thoughts about everything and wasn’t sure it was working. I knew I needed to see the webinar. I chose to be on the webinar and wow am I glad I stuck with that choice! There was definitely a shift that took place.
The video explanation was incredible! Gave me a new perspective on what “mental” means. Body, mind and spirit. How it is much more connected than I thought before. How exactly to change mentally and physically and spiritually. How the brain works with thoughts, with feelings, with results. That every little task we do daily big or small imprints one way or the other, moving forward or backwards.
It is quite amazing, this phenomenon that human beings are or capable to be. It is a little mind blowing right now. I also really needed to hear Mark say that everything we do, readings, note cards, and sits, is taking us closer to are purpose. That what ever work or act we do during the day is a service in itself.